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Hey guys. Long time no text, eh?

I’ve been thinking some… And like…

I kind of want to come back to RPing

but like

At the same time I don’t?

IDK, there are some personal social relation things I need to settle that involve people tied to this community that I’m too much of a coward to confront. Pretty pathetic, huh? I won’t go into to detail because it’s personal and I don’t want to vilify anyone. Cause that’s totally rude and stuff.

However, if I ever do decide to come back, I feel like I might have to redo this blog… Like… Give it an extreme makeover or something. Change the theme, some head canons, preferences ect ect. It’ll probably be when I DON’T have tons of work looming over my shoulder. My life is kind of crazy right now, and jumping back into things would be a giant salad bowl of stress.

So yeah. Quick update on my life.

If you need to ask me something than feel free to message this blog. I do have a tendency to lurk sometimes. (Hence if you ever see me online here)

Ta-ta for now!}

OOC:// Why I haven’t been on…

… I could say some excuse about how schools been hard, how I’ve been working on art portfolios, have had difficult classes and all that mess. However while that’s all true, the real truth of the matter is… Well…

… I haven’t been enjoying myself here…

… Before my disappearance, every post I made felt like a big contest to win over someone’s attention. It was not only a chore, but it made me feel… Inadequate  Like I’ve over stayed my welcome. As if I would just be better off writing fanfictions with all the lack of character reaction my muses were getting.

And that’s just the thing. This community just feels… Really bad with that.

I see people all the time saying that they’re going to RP with different people more, but when push comes to shove, no one… Really talks to anyone. Ever.

It’s not a friendly atmosphere. MORE THAN ONCE, in this community I felt like I’ve had to choose sides because someone couldn’t admit that maybe they were wrong, and had to make a big fuss over it. Spreading nasty rumors, or painting ugly pictures of people over some crazy paranoia.

And that makes me feel… REALLY uncomfortable.

I made this account, and my other two blogs, in hopes to get over my own social anxiety. Talk to people. Break from my shell. And this community feels like it supports doing just the opposite.

And it’s kind of sad.

Don’t get me wrong. I’ve met a lot of good people here. Wonderful people. However the amount of unwelcome-ness and backstage hate, unfortunately, overshadows this. I feel too out of place and unwanted here, and it’s no fun.

It hurts. And I’m not going to do something that hurts me.

Now, I’m not deleting this account. Lord knows I regretted deleting my first tumblr RP account. I’m not saying I’m leaving forever either. I just… Don’t want to be here right now. Too much conflict, and a lack of genuine friendliness, ya know?

So yeah…
If you want to hit me up, say hi to me on my art blog or something. I’ll be there doing things I love.

I guess I’ll see you guys some other time.

Stay healthy,
-Aki

Reblog if you want someone to compare you to a Disney or Dreamworks character in your ask!

(Source: aladdinsfuturewife)

Ah, I was actually rather interested in meeting a different version of me.

Oh well. Maybe next time. σ(^_^;)

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